weekend (boo)

So weekends here kind of stink. 

Unless I'm going on a trip to somewhere fun, weekends are a drag. They are usually spent worrying about studying and about all the things I should be doing. Too bad it never seems like anything ever gets done, though. It seems like I can never study enough, like I can never save enough money, or just use my time wisely enough. Not to mention all the official restaurants on campus close for the weekend, and I have to walk to more expensive places. It's all just minor stress stuff.

Living here is fun, but it's tough for a while. Korea is full of lots of low level stress things. The water is different, the air tastes and smells funny, the shower is the bathroom, it's not humid like it is at home, I can't get my normal comfort foods, etc. Normally any one of those things wouldn't do harm, but all together they can pose a problem eventually. 

I can't seem to get my mic stuff to work, I think I have a faulty piece of wiring for them. I will have to call Shure I guess and see what I can do about getting another deal, or I might just buy another one. I'm not sure. I just wish it would work the way it's supposed to. 

Today wasn't supposed to be one of the those tougher days. The only things I have done is study and try to be productive, but somehow or another it's gone downhill. I know I've only been here for about a month now but I feel like I don't know as much Korean as I should. I can say basic sentences and stuff, but that's pretty much it. The grammar is difficult, because it's like crazy yoda talk. 

I'm also kinda worried that I'm not going to get credit for anything when I get back. Funny thing is, that worry is going hand in hand with the worry that I actually will get credit for being here. I really feel like I will be totally dishonest if I say that my language course is deserving of Murray State language credit. My class doesn't seem like a major-level class. Sure, the teacher talks in Korean for 95% of the class, but I don't know many many things. I can't (haven't learned the rules for) say things in the: past tense, future tense (near and far), subjunctive. I also definitely can't say anything that matters, except that I am an American, I study at Daegu University, I'm going to the library, and such sentences as that. I am really starting to feel unsatisfied with myself for trying to pass that off as deserving twelve hours of language (major credit nonetheless). Sure, I'm in class for 20 hours a week, but I'm in the beginner level. There are four levels. This may seem really dumb to say all of this, but I feel really crappy. 

As far as my english classes go, what happens with them? I think I should actually get credit for them, but sadly (and this is my worry), my teachers aren't professors. I know that there are assistant professors and whatnot, but I just know MSU won't like it. Two of my teachers have Masters' and the other I'm sure could right a dissertation on Literature with his knowledge. I really do think the classes are equitable to those Gen eds in Murray, I'm just worried it's not going to happen. 

I can't seem to live up to the serenity prayer, no matter how hard I try. I know if I can't change it, I shouldn't worry, but what if this all counts for nothing? 

It's all exhausting to think about. 

The whole day and yesterday have basically been the same thing, so this one entry pretty much accounts for both. Sorry for no video this week. I should have two next week.

Until Tomorrow
Aron Huckaba International Vagabond